It's impossible!!
I Can't stand or understand how my once beloved friends can change sooo much and not show love or affection for me any more. I still love them, I miss them and they are the only one to brighten my day. My two favorite twins are, well lets just say are "maturing", and my once loved friend is now spreading rumers and lies about me and Amanda, and then lies about it to our face. My friend Daniel is still very argumentive but is now cursing allot. I can't tell three of my best friends something without them unfairly judging me, and they were never like that.
for the past month i have cried my self to sleep every night, or I do not sleep at all.
that was a bit of a song that i learned in kindergarden, it was stuck in my head all day today.
~R-E-D- RED, R-E-D RED, I CAN SPELL RED, I CAN SPELL RED, FIRETRUCKS ARE RED, STOP SIGHNS ARE RED TOO, R-E-D, R-E-D!~
TODAY WAS OUR FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL BACK FROM THE WEEK OF EXAMS AND A 4 DAY WEEKEND. EVERY ONE SEEMED REALLY ANGRY OR OVERLY HAPPY. IT WAS SCARY. WELL I GOTS TO GO CUZ MY MOM WILL KILL ME IF I'M NOT OUT SIDE BY 4:30...AND IT IS NOW 4:27 ...4:28. K BYE ^.^
This whole week we had to take exams and we get out at 12:40, Most people are extremely happy about it, I'm also happy that I don't have to be in school, but I hate going home. I'm always critesised and put down and I feel completly hated. I'd rather be with my meanest of my so called friends than go home. but when ever I ask my mom if I could go outShe says that I always go out and I need to stay home and learn to be nicewith others and learn to deal with my problems instead of running away. So why would I want to go back? what ever i do to be nice goes unnotticed and when I do somthing a little mean or a say somthing sarcastic I get in trouble. I get yelled at when I don't clean the whole house, but when I do clean I don't get any prais or I still get yelled at for not doing something right.
I got kicked out of my bed room(I shared with my sister) so My sister's friend could live with us (She ran Away)and they gave her my bed.I now sleep in the living room on an air matress, most of my stuff is crammed in the living room and they don't have any respect for my things. they mess with them and destroy them. My painting (that required alot of work and effert) was ruined because my mom "accidentually" spilled water o it!
Hello again! I'm back after a while. I havn't been able to use the computer for a while so obviouly i couldn't log on to vox. School is getting really extremely stressfull and I wish i could just spend time having fun with friends...but i can't because of school!>.<
My New Years Resolution is to be nicer to everyone,and not so sarcastic.
My other resolution is to pass all my classes and not be so lazy, or such a procrastinator.
V.V Sadly i've already said something mean to someone, So i really have to work on it!
